frightening. i told babi i wanted to break up. i thought this over long and hard. i mean, i really believe that if i cant be your everything, then i rather be your nothing. its hurts, alot. aft having xav, i realised all the probs cm. i mean, i really dont wan to regret it the nxt time if we get married, and in the end realised that it was a mistake. i not trying to say, this was a mistake. i would love to do anytin to keep this relationship going. but, why? he'e the guy i know, for sure, the only one i love alot. mayb in the future i will meet some guy. yes i will love him. but not as deep as i had for babi. but for babi's case? i know im not the girl he really love. yes, he loves me. but not until that level, where he will do or sacrifice anytin. it kind of hurts to know that the person you really love, does not love u back as much as u do. why is love such a funny thing? i mean, yea i can say i love u i love u. but, do u know there's diff level of love? but right now, we haven offically break up yet. cos babi went to bathe. i tink he also needs to tink abt it. of cos, i wouldnt want to break wif him. but i believe in fate. if wad is meant to be, it will be. if he's really the one for me, we will be together somemore. not now, mayb in the future? who knows. or mayb, he's not even the one for me. who knows. but, i tink i will be very devasted if we really broke up. afterall, i can say he's my true love. but love is a funny thing. i also dont understand love. some people might see it as a very simple thing. but i feel that, there's more to love. or mayb i tinking to much. but thats me. hmm, i dont know why. i feel scared right now. my heart is wishing that we will not break up. but, will we get happiness? i will miss him, so so so sooo much. i love u babi, frm the bottom of my heart.