i got my MACBK! YAY YAY YAY! these few days were very sucky for me. kept fighting with babi. dont wish to talk abt it. but today he was very nice. he surprised me with the macbk! omg omg. at first i msged him, so how? he said out of stock. i was like, hai expected la. then later when he came to my hse, he was carrying the macbk! omg omg. but after that we fought again. omg. i dont know wad is our prob. i tink fighting is our passion. 

fuck.
what have i done now.
was it even my fault?
i admit, i raised my voice at you.
but not because i dont want to follow you back.
i know ya tired frm work and all.
i just dont want you to travel here and there.
why cant you understand.
and now, ya angry with me.
one moment we are fine.
the next moment we are enemies.
my 'so-called wonderful' life.
fuck fuck fuck.

I HATE MY LIFE TO THE EXTREME, seriously.

god, stop pushing me to the extreme.
i cannot take it anymore.
i am not strong enough to play mind games with you.
just.
let me go.

instead of reading my material for class tmr. (btw, i have a project and tut quiz), here im blog-hopping. good one candice. what a CHANGED person uh. anyway, was really glad to find out 5n1 some classmates are having good life. even though we barely talk to each other, but im glad that you all are having a happy life.

haha so emo. siao.

WHY DOES EVERYONE KEEPS SAYING ROBIN AND I LOOK THE SAME??

OMG. i like FINALLY managed to get the materials that is needed for csas. lucky me. at first aft sch, i went to find it but cannot. then i start to panic. later i msged dr yap and told him i cannot make it cos i have alot of assignments to complete. as usual, he's nice and all and he said 'ok, study more important!' what's with the exclamination man. anyway was really very grateful that he agreed. cos i managed to catch the sleep which i need so much and i start resourcing at ten. haha i slept frm 3 to 6pm. wanted to sleep longer. but grandma isnt happy. cos she really tired from looking after xav. then she keep asking me to wake up. so yupps. was forced to wake up. frm 7 to 9plus. bought xav down for a stroll. went to buy eggtarts. dont know why, today's eggtarts arent that nice as the previous times. never mind. went home. had dinner and played awhile. babi rched here ard 8plus, going to 9pm. i wonder what took him so long. i told him to come earlier. hmm, never mind. at least he came. and guess what! he bought a big sized doll for me frm bugis. omg omg. i remembered that time we were at bugis shopping, i saw the doll and i just said 'cute uh.' at that time, he wanted to buy for me, but i told him dont want. cos i tink its abt $50( i also cannot rem the price alr.) AND NOW HE BOUGHT IT FOR ME! somehow, it resembled the future xav. hmm.. oh yea. babi asked xav to bring the doll to me. at first i didnt know cos i was in the room. when xav came into the room, he was smiling all. i thought what was that big plastic bag and why is he smiling. then i went to see and i saw it that doll! hahahahahahaha. i feel really relieved now. cos i found my materials. but oh man, now i have to read them to get ready for class tmr. shit. i hate csas, even more.

thanks babi. <3

OMG. sch is driving me crazy. there's so many research going on. and i hate to do research, cause FIRSTLY, im a sucker at the relevant info and SECONDLY, i just hate reading the info. OMG OMG. and agnes just told me yst that biotech is mostly research based. oh man, i made the wrong choice. regrets. on friday, started my first ever tution. at first i was like scared because as i had mentioned, its my first time. but after that, i feel that, hmm, quite fun uh. i hope the boys enjoyed my tution too. because this is their first time also. :)
im going to be very busy because right now im having three jobs and sch. i feel very bad because i neglected my friends, especially sam and bel. everytime they ask me out, i will tell them i got work. i feel so so so bad. its like u ask a friend out many times, and they just keep rejecting you. but i really have to work. i dont want to keep depending on my mother to provide for xav expenses. i hope they understand. sorry.

SAT.
at midnight. baby xav woke up. and started scratching his arm. and i realised that there's rashes over there. i of cos panicked. but later i saw babi like searching for a cream the ease the itchness, i can feel the fatherly-ness in him. and later he helped xav scratched, omg. that image. haha. really very fatherly.
im so inlove with him.
ok. i have to stop here. going to do some revision on my tut tmr. HELP. :(