people tossing in bed. wake up and going back to their beds. thats what happening now. something happened that costed my mother, sis and i fought. erm, not really fight fight. dont wish to elaborate what happened. i dont blame my mum. really. i think she is just stressed over money. i hate money. and im really afraid she will have mental health prob. im really afraid. after attending the mental health talk, i feel that my mum might be having depression, and im afraid it will get worse. please. i cannot deal with all these anymore. my poor baby cried for one hr. and in his sleep, he is going, sniffs sniffs. my heart break when i see him like this.

doing the right thing seems so hard. i made a mistake. and i tried to make it right. i told myself, its ok if outsider sees me with another eye. but now, my mother and aunties are doing that. it hurts, when you know your mother is supporting you, but on the other hand, ashamed of you. seriously, i dont blame her.
it just hurts, alot.

A BAG'S TALE.
went backpack hunting with agnes today. haha bought a new bag! AGAIN. everyone is so gonna kill me. :( but u see, it doesnt help very much if someone keep asking you to get it. but it doesnt help if someone dont let you to get it. you will feel restricted. haha. ok i will guide you through wad happened today. saw agnes and ms stef my 'so called' nice bag. when ithey first saw it. both of them started shaking their heads. ok. then later ms stef said, "if you really like it, then get it." then agnes said, "you will sure regret." thats when i woke up. haha agnes know me so well. later walk walk walk. went past this shop. these two salesgirls were persuading us to get facial from them. they said alot of bullshit. then finally when we say 'no thank you.' they said what we lying to them all. say we not sincere enough. bullshit. luckily agnes was firm and said NO. but honestly. it was hard. we stayed at the shop for like half an hr listening to their crap. later headed to bugis junction. THATS when i saw the nice backpack. at first i told agnes get it. then later she was like, "eh you get it also la. then we can help the same bag." haha i dont know why. i felt really touched cos its like someone asking you to have the same things as them. hmm, i also dont know how to explain. anyway it was a nice feeling. :) pens also ask me to get the smae as her, pencilbox also. but i didnt la. cos i got pencilbox and LOTS of pens alr. stayed in the shop for half an hr. deciding whether i should get the bag. haha trust me. it was really half an hr. even the salelady also cannot take it. but she didnt chase us out. phew. hesitate hesitate. finally. got the bag. haha thats, my bag story. haha. :)

omg. i made a horrible mistake at work today. actually was a BIG big mistake. firstly, patient told me the address was wrong. but i was so busy with other stuff that i didnt ask her for her new add and num. secondly, i didnt tell the instruction that dr yap wrote. omg omg. lucky for me. i have a understanding boss. he said 'you're dead you're dead. the patient is going to die.' but i think he saw my worried face. he just said. 'no la. its ok. the patient wont die. just be careful nxt time.'

OMG. pls pls pls. i hope nothing happens to the patient! SORRY.

FINALLY.
exams are OVER! haha i really hope i did well for my first few papers. ok, i was hopping for an 'A' but u see, due to me being a procastinator, i doubt so. so im hopping for a PASS! pls pls pls. i think for my last paper, omg omg. i think i can just kill myself. i still rem that day when i saw the questions. haha i almost took out a lighter and burn the paper. but u see, i didnt have a lighter. haha kidding. i doubt i will have the guts to burn it anyway. even though i studied 3hrs beofre my paper, nothing went in. haha. but on that day i had two papers. i spent 7hrs studying for the first paper. but the paper was like okok. study for 3hrs can alr. haha ok i dont understand what im saying now.
on thurs, went to town with agnes. went to repair my phone. i HATE the customer service at wheelock nokia centre. omg. NO SMILE. NO BAG TO PUT YOUR PHONE BATT AND COVER. NO ANYTHING. omg omg. i want complain. haha typical singapore AUNTIE. omg. i think i too auntie. agnes kept saying that im very motherly. omg omg omg. HOW HOW HOW. so after that, went to borders. saw a nice pencilbox! agnes liked it also. so decides to get her for her birthday. feels bad, never give her any present. i think im very generous to her even though im broke. i treat her to lunch. dont worry, i dont 'like like' her in that way. hmm, im puzzled too. went to far east to have dinner. as usual when to the same old place to eat. tried their fried e mee. taste like char kuay teow. agnes ordered hokkien mee. not bad. ok will eat that next time. :) when window shopping. saw this shoes! i think alot of pple will say very ugly. but i tink nice wad. haha agnes said nice on me. :P hahaha. but didnt get it. cos, size too big. :( but i really like it. its ok. not fated to get it. walked around, touch here touch there. i dont know why. i have the tendency to go to the watch shop at far east. not the cheap one of cos. i think i want to go work there. but im not into sales that kind. and i dont want to work at far east. so many bitches bimbo ahbengs and ahlians. haha mayb can ask sam go there work. den everyday aft sch go find her. haha i sound like im damn free like that. but i really want to work there! haha but i doubt i will like it. haha, im so contradicting. :)

i want go shopping. but im broke. sighs.
i got work in the morning tmr. and i still not asleep. sighs.

EXAMS!!
mon and tue paper was alright. i THINK i know how to do. but u see for my quizzes, i was so confident that i will at least PASS. but in the end, i FAILED. wth. Lesson learnt, not to be confident that i will pass. but i really hope i will do well. i want to get at least a gpa of 3.5 when i graduate. but omg. ITS A DREAM. and tmr i got bchm paper. and i haven even started. omg. im need to kill myself.

thanks babi for all the POCKY! :)))

back again. with sadder post.
hmm. i decided to give my mac back to robin's sister. kind of sad cos first of all, i was really excited about getting my first laptop.
secondly, i really love the design of MAC. but the functions, omg. i guess im just too used to windows.
agnes told me to get a new windowed programmed lappy.
but on second thoughts, why do i need to get a laptop?
BUT I MUST SAY.
it really very convenient.
hmm, see how.
if im fated to have a laptop, i will get it somehow.
mayb not now, but in the future. :))
omg. tmr is my first paper.
AND I STIL HAVE 2 MORE CHAPS.
i have less than 8hrs to study.
omg. there's goes my gpa.
down down down.