i finally managed to tell him. i told him its up to him, to break or to come find me when i meant something to him. i will respect his decision. even though i alr sent him the msg, im regretting now. im so afraid of the truth, when now, i know what is the outcome. i know the truth. i know what is he going to be.

sometimes, the truth just hurts.

singlehood, here i come.
it isnt that bad huh.. at least now i will get to spend time with my friends, going to weekend church with bel and monkey. but they are both have the other one. how i envy them, to have found someone who treats them like diamonds. better than me, getting treated like dirt and still holding on. my mother must be very disappointed to know that she has such a useless and stupid daughter.

oh wells, i just have to learn to stand up.

i need help, seriously.